Why is it so hard for me to let go of control?
This is one thing you have most likely already guessed about me when you’ve been studying my weblog for some time. I am a management freak. 😀 I am not a crew participant. It is not straightforward for me to belief folks to do issues for me. I have been like this my complete life. My mother instructed me that one of many first full sentences I discovered to say as a child was, “I do it myself!” So I’ve at all times been fiercely impartial.
As I’ve labored on this home for the final practically ten years, there have been issues I clearly needed to lease as a result of there was no manner I may do it myself. I employed the structural work once we transformed the storage into my studio. I imply, there is no manner I may have turned that…
…on this on their lonesome.
However I am certain these guys would say I used to be at all times round, at all times hovering, at all times ensuring issues had been going based on plan. and issues actually no go away with out issues. There have been some fairly important frustrations with that contractor – miscommunications that might have simply been averted and by no means ought to have occurred – that solely added to my resolve by no means to rent work except completely needed as a result of I can not belief folks to do the work. issues accurately. (I shared extra particulars about that right here.)
After which there was the storage. No manner may I’ve constructed this alone. It required pouring concrete, including large and really heavy structural beams, and so forth. This was a job greatest carried out by a number of males. (I actually need to get present pictures of the storage!)
And I rented all the elemental work (flooring, drywall, electrical, uncooked plumbing, framing) within the visitor bed room, residence gymnasium, hallway, and grasp tub.
I additionally rented new HardiPlank siding put in, painted the outside of the home, poured the brand new entrance driveway, and I am certain I am forgetting just a few minor issues.
So if it is one thing I do know I am not bodily able to doing, or one thing that requires a number of folks, or one thing I’ve sworn by no means to do once more in my life (like putting in, gluing, and taping drywall), I will rent him out. I’ll begrudgingly do that after which I’ll hover and ask lots of questions whereas the work is being carried out, however I’ll rent you.
However I’ve at all times had such a tough time letting myself rent work that I do know I can do myself. And it is probably not a matter of not desirous to spend the cash. It is only a matter of me being extraordinarily impartial and never counting on different folks to do the job to my requirements. I by no means let anybody else do any inside trim work on our home as a result of I do not belief anybody else to do this.
The issue is, my robust independence and management freak tendencies aren’t simply directed in the direction of my DIY initiatives and make money working from home. However I additionally discover it actually onerous to relinquish management of issues that different folks can most likely do quite a bit higher than I can, like cleansing my home. And as you understand, this bought me in hassle final week.
Whereas I used to be sick in mattress all week, watching helplessly as my home turned increasingly of a whole catastrophe space with every passing day, it by no means occurred to me to rent somebody to assist me. That thought by no means crossed my thoughts.. That is not how my mind works.
There was truly a time in 2016 and 2017 after I employed somebody to scrub our home, however that form of fizzled out and I by no means thought of hiring anybody else. For no less than six months, Matt has been urging me to rent somebody to return in no less than as soon as each two weeks, if not each week, to scrub the home so I can deal with different issues, however I’ve simply been dragging my ft. in that. It is so onerous for me to surrender management over the issues I do know I can do alone. Why am I like this?!?!
Proper now there are three issues that we often lease. The primary is mowing the garden, and I by no means thought twice about handing it over to another person. Now we have an acre of land and I’ve completely no need to chop it myself. We additionally contract out our pest management and HVAC upkeep, which occur quarterly. These are the one issues we lease now.
I go searching my home and see so many little initiatives I may and will tackle. The pretend stone on the porch skirting. Why am I made up my mind to do that alone? A handyman may do that in a day. Reinstalling the shutter that fell out throughout excessive winds throughout a storm. It has been sitting there for a few 12 months now as I inform myself I will get it out ASAP. Why am I so decided to do that alone? I may provide you with an extended checklist of initiatives like this that I may simply tackle and but I’ve a very onerous time delivering them. Why???
Anyway, all that to say…
Hey. My identify is Kristi and I am a management freak.
However I actually need to enhance and study to belief different folks to do issues for me. I will pressure myself to make some telephone calls right this moment.
What home-related issues do you have got outdoors assist for? Do you have got a handyman on pace dial? Do you rent the upkeep of your garden? Do you have got somebody cleansing your home? I am simply curious. Every other management freaks like me on the market?